About a week or so after this pregnancy was confirmed, I started to “feel” pregnant. I was waiting on the nausea, fatigue, heightened sense of smell, et al. symptoms. These little pleasures began arriving, as did the feeling of “it’s a boy”. I felt my center of gravity a lot lower in my torso than […]
I always joked with Charles when I was pregnant that AJ was never going to listen to her daddy. She and I would be lying on the couch (she in the womb, me on the couch) and she’d be kicking up a storm. I couldn’t wait for Charles to get home or make it into […]
I get it. This type of thing is NOT easy. It’s not easy for me, and I know it’s not easy for you (the “you” being anyone out there reading this that knows me and is forced to communicate/interact with me, i.e. friends and family). I’ve done a lot of thinking over the last nine […]
Healing. The hurting and healing process actually began a long time ago. It began the day we found out there was something wrong with our baby. We were hurt. And we continually healed, everyday. We had to heal a little bit everyday in order to function — we had to go to work and church […]
Hurting and healing go hand-in-hand. You hurt and then you heal, and then you hurt some more and heal some more…and by “you” I mean me, because I can’t speak for everyone. The first part of “Hurting and Healing” will be about hurting. Unfortunately, hurting is a very real thing which garners very real emotions; emotions, thoughts […]
For the average nineteen year olds in a dating relationship, they are not thinking about being engaged or even married, they are just nineteen and dating and having fun. (The caveat to that statement is that the female is always thinking about getting engaged and having a wedding, but not super seriously planning at 19.) Further, they are definitely […]
Today, in honor of my original due date, October 29, 2014, we invite you all to share in the story of our pregnancy. Our journey through pregnancy and the birth of our baby is documented via pictures-in-video to continue to share our story with others, and to remember the beautiful year we have been blessed […]
While most of my friends (and pregnant women, in general) are planning for their nurseries and baby showers, I was doing a different kind of planning during the pregnancy. I was planning for an inevitable funeral and burial. I made “End of Life” arrangements in our perfectly pink (currently) office that was supposed to be […]
A few more highlights from Labor & Delivery: I went from 2 to 10 centimeters dilated in 2 hours. Yay, uterus and cervix! While I was napping after the epidural, Charles was sitting at the table next to my bed eating Fritos. The sound of him crunching those deliciously delectable chips while I had been […]
**Warning: This post is a little lengthy!** At 30 weeks along in the pregnancy, I joked with POB that I was “ready to get this show on the road!” But, I was really half joking and half serious. The anticipation of childbirth and meeting my baby girl was killing me, like most other moms who have […]
Our Angel AJ 